XPU has simplified how I get insulin into my body. It hasn't changed the wobbly feeling of an oncoming low blood sugar. Or the headache from a rapid high. Both of these things happen, usually when I would much rather pay attention to something else. For me, chronic illnesses are frustrating. Daily low grade frustration over something I don't want and can't change makes me feel depressed.
Since I cannot fix MG or diabetes I decided to pay attention to things I can change. As I sorted through I asked myself two questions:
- What in my life is having a negative impact on me?
- How can I change it?
After reading a nightmare inducing story about a parent disfiguring their child I realized I needed to stop. I have enough in my life to feel upset about. I don't need to go looking for more. About a month ago I stopped reading the news. Almost immediately I felt an improvement in my mood. When I stopped reading the news I stopped the steady flow of depressing and negative information into my life.
I took a step back and realized the news wasn't helping me feel at peace or giving me strength. I need a strong spirit to help me deal with MG and diabetes. Feeling depressed weakens my spirit and the news definitely makes me feel depressed. There are a lot of things in life I have no control over. With the news I control the off button and I'm not afraid to use it. Right now in my life no news really is good news.